And more proof that I need to get my rear in gear. I went shopping at Lane Bryant today with my best friend. Now, Best Friend has usually been a solid 22-24, where I've been anywhere between a 16-20 (I've actually gone from 16 TO 20 in three years, I've gone from 18-20 in less than 6 months, which should prove something). Best Friend has been losing weight in recent months and today proved something. She tried on her usual size and it's actually too large for her (24). The same with the 22. Which means that the two of us are now about the same size. If that's not enough proof, I don't know what is. On the plus side, I did do my walking today just going around the mall. And also: I think I lost weight (wait, what?). I tried on several pairs of pants today and I bought two size 18s for the first time in months, and one size 20. I actually don't know if I'm 18 or if I'm 20. The jeans I have fit me but the black cords I wear for work are tremendously loose.
Now for the potential victory. The main grocery store on the West Side is going out of business. It's a loss to the community because it was one of the only grocery stores that were convenient for the residents. Now they'll have to truck their way all across town to get to the closest grocery store. But I count this as a potential victory for myself because of two things: Because we have to truck across town and use the large supermarket that has organic foods. And the grocery store's closing will leave a large space open for another grocery store to open there, ideally an organic one.
My mother and I were discussing that tonight and she also agreed that we need to eat organic and to try to put a water filter into the kitchen sink to begin with, as well as cutting our restaurant trips from three-four times a week to twice. We will have to pitch this idea to my father who is the one who does the grocery shopping. If I can get him to at least begin to buy our fruits and veggetables completely organic to begin with, that would be terrific. Then we can start with the water filters. Then buying organic meat. Then buying organic cereals. Then...you get the idea. Little steps. Little things. And I also need to make my mother teach me how to cook. I know how to but I know only a few basic meals. And if I can help her every so often by making dinner versus her doing it, then it would help.
But I remain absolutely unenthusiastic and refuse to get excited. Because whenever I get excited about anything, it does not happen. I styill hope this will, though
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Sunday, January 6, 2008
Ravenous.
So, how goes the diet, 6 days in? Let's see.
Weight hasn't changed all that much since it's only been 6 days, but I've actually noticed I've been a lot hungrier and thirstier lately, which worries me a little. (I had one entire bowl of Papa Gino's spaghetti yesterday and was hungry within two hours again. Normally I can only manage a half a bowl which is still a lot. One bowl of spaghetti is about 4 servings...so yes, either my metabolism is working or I have diabetes. I pray it's the former because if it's the latter, I am NOT going on Metformin again, hell no).
I need to get back into the habit of eating a regular breakfast-I usually do when college is in session but when it's the weekend or when I have vacation, it's an excuse to skip breakfast and chow down on crap, which I need to change. I also still need to pack a lunch. I think I'll bully my father into taking me to the grocery store, we have nothing (I like) to eat for lunch in the house. I'm very picky when it comes to things like lucnh. I don't like cold meat or sliced meats. I usually like tuna and warm sandwiches. I like PB&J sometimes. I love tuna melts the best. It needs to be crunchy and melty and oh so very fattening. Maybe I can train myself to like more things to eat.
I've lately been on a Tositos and Salsa kick. Having 2 tablespoons of medium or hot salsa in a small dish with a small bowl of chips. It's delicious, it satisfies my craving and even better, the spiciness makes it so I can only eat a little and feel full. I happen to like their 'made with organic" yellow tortilla chips and the multigrain ones, but my mother can't stand them, so we have the regular, full fat ones in the house. Garden of Eating makes some awesome blue corn chips which my mother can't stand because they're "too spicy." They aren't, really. But then again, my sense of heat is way stronger than hers.
Work today. I hope for Tuesday off so I can show you the craziness that all the political candidates and news crews are making in my town.
Weight hasn't changed all that much since it's only been 6 days, but I've actually noticed I've been a lot hungrier and thirstier lately, which worries me a little. (I had one entire bowl of Papa Gino's spaghetti yesterday and was hungry within two hours again. Normally I can only manage a half a bowl which is still a lot. One bowl of spaghetti is about 4 servings...so yes, either my metabolism is working or I have diabetes. I pray it's the former because if it's the latter, I am NOT going on Metformin again, hell no).
I need to get back into the habit of eating a regular breakfast-I usually do when college is in session but when it's the weekend or when I have vacation, it's an excuse to skip breakfast and chow down on crap, which I need to change. I also still need to pack a lunch. I think I'll bully my father into taking me to the grocery store, we have nothing (I like) to eat for lunch in the house. I'm very picky when it comes to things like lucnh. I don't like cold meat or sliced meats. I usually like tuna and warm sandwiches. I like PB&J sometimes. I love tuna melts the best. It needs to be crunchy and melty and oh so very fattening. Maybe I can train myself to like more things to eat.
I've lately been on a Tositos and Salsa kick. Having 2 tablespoons of medium or hot salsa in a small dish with a small bowl of chips. It's delicious, it satisfies my craving and even better, the spiciness makes it so I can only eat a little and feel full. I happen to like their 'made with organic" yellow tortilla chips and the multigrain ones, but my mother can't stand them, so we have the regular, full fat ones in the house. Garden of Eating makes some awesome blue corn chips which my mother can't stand because they're "too spicy." They aren't, really. But then again, my sense of heat is way stronger than hers.
Work today. I hope for Tuesday off so I can show you the craziness that all the political candidates and news crews are making in my town.
Thursday, January 3, 2008
Why I Don't Believe Kevin Trudeau.
While I believe Kevin Trudeau is a good guy who's trying to do us a good service, there are a few things that he says that, to me, destroy his credibility.
1. If the FDA was truly after him to shut him up permanently, wouldn't they have already done so? He repeatedly says in his second Natural Cures book that "omg I just revealed some important information, read it and if you see a story on the news that I died, I was assasinated!" Well, he's not dead yet.
2. Repetition of the same thing over. and. over. and. over again. While it's for dramatic effect, putting the EXACT same article into both of his books annoys me.
3. Having to have a subscription to his site in the first place.
4. Stories of people who've subscribed to said site and have the damndest time trying to unsubscribe.
5. The cost of the products he recommends. Not many of the things he recommends are free. The list of sites for breathing exercises, for example, all involve buying videos, buying subscriptions to THOSE sites, etc.
6. Is he a Scientologist? I picked up the book on Dianetics (Dianetics: The Modern Science Of Mental Health by L. Ron Hubbard) and am having a hell of a time with it. I happen to enjoy psychology and am good at it, but I'm one quarter of a way through the book and have put it down because it's confusing. That, plus the Q-Links and Ependant that Kevin Trudeau recommends, while gorgeous, are outrageously expensive. Then again, I want the expensive models to begin with. The Ependant "sport" starts at $184 and the Q-link starts at $99. Still expensive for jewelry.
I haven't eaten healthily or organic these past two days and I can feel it. I'm pretty mad that Rite Aid got rid of the Hershey's Organic chocolate that was in bags in the candy aisle. For lunch today I caved in and had nachos. Pseudo ones, with salsa mixed with con queso and cheddar over tortilla chips cooked in the microwave. For dinner, chicken tenders from the Puritan, the local restaurant who are famous for them. However, the waitress who boxed the dinner didn't put in fresh sauces and I had to use the used ones my parents used. A bit of boiling in the microwave rendered them cootie free but it's still quite gross.
Also, I may treat myself to a book. I haven't treated myself to anything since October when I bought Phantom Hourglass for my DS.
1. If the FDA was truly after him to shut him up permanently, wouldn't they have already done so? He repeatedly says in his second Natural Cures book that "omg I just revealed some important information, read it and if you see a story on the news that I died, I was assasinated!" Well, he's not dead yet.
2. Repetition of the same thing over. and. over. and. over again. While it's for dramatic effect, putting the EXACT same article into both of his books annoys me.
3. Having to have a subscription to his site in the first place.
4. Stories of people who've subscribed to said site and have the damndest time trying to unsubscribe.
5. The cost of the products he recommends. Not many of the things he recommends are free. The list of sites for breathing exercises, for example, all involve buying videos, buying subscriptions to THOSE sites, etc.
6. Is he a Scientologist? I picked up the book on Dianetics (Dianetics: The Modern Science Of Mental Health by L. Ron Hubbard) and am having a hell of a time with it. I happen to enjoy psychology and am good at it, but I'm one quarter of a way through the book and have put it down because it's confusing. That, plus the Q-Links and Ependant that Kevin Trudeau recommends, while gorgeous, are outrageously expensive. Then again, I want the expensive models to begin with. The Ependant "sport" starts at $184 and the Q-link starts at $99. Still expensive for jewelry.
I haven't eaten healthily or organic these past two days and I can feel it. I'm pretty mad that Rite Aid got rid of the Hershey's Organic chocolate that was in bags in the candy aisle. For lunch today I caved in and had nachos. Pseudo ones, with salsa mixed with con queso and cheddar over tortilla chips cooked in the microwave. For dinner, chicken tenders from the Puritan, the local restaurant who are famous for them. However, the waitress who boxed the dinner didn't put in fresh sauces and I had to use the used ones my parents used. A bit of boiling in the microwave rendered them cootie free but it's still quite gross.
Also, I may treat myself to a book. I haven't treated myself to anything since October when I bought Phantom Hourglass for my DS.
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Medical Conditions/Why I Believe In Kevin Trudeau.
Continuing on with my background information, I'm going to talk about what sort of medical problems I have, the drugs I take and the reasons why I believe in Kevin Trudeau.
Medical conditions:
Asthma/allergies: I'm allergic to dust, pet hair (I own two beagles), fragrances and hair sprays. If it has fur or a strong scent, I cannot go near it without coughing/wheezing/sneezing or in the case of pets, without developing a skin rash when I touch certain animals. I'm currently takign Singulair once a day, Flovent twice a day and albuterol as needed.
Obesity: This is obvious. It's because I overeat and don't get enough exercise. I just recently started working, though. Being a lowly cashier at Rite Aid at least gets me off my feet and away from the computer. But it also puts me in the direct line of various snack foods and unhealthy frozen treats and meals. Unfortunately, that is all we stock in our store as far as food goes. There are only four organic items I've counted in the entire store. So my solution will be to make my own lunch. It's cheaper, easier than waiting in line during the lunch rush and it'll be healthier.
Suspected Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS) and Diabetes: I believe that I don't have either, but according to my registered nurse practioner (I'll call her Dr. anyway), I do. I do have some excess body hair, and Oligomenorrhea/Amenorrhoea due to my weight. I used to take Metformin but have stopped due to a reaction to it-increased swelling of the breast.
Scoliosis/Kyposis: Abnormal curvature of the spine. Leads to backaches and all sorts. At the moment, I don't need a brace but if it comes to it, I may need one.
Staph infections/Boils: I'm very susceptibile to them. That's about all I need to tell you.
I'm most likely forgetting a few in that list beyond general aches/pains, pimples and so on, but that's the general rundown of my health. If asked how I feel, I would give myself an 89% out of 100%. God knows I'm not running at my best.
Now. My reason for listening to Kevin Trudeau is this: He makes sense.
Seriously. He makes sense to me. My mother brought his first book Natural Cures "They" Don't Want You To Know About, and his second book, More Natural Cures "They Don't Want You To Know About. I ended up buying his third book, The Weight Loss Cure "They" Don't Want You To Know About. I'm rereading the books for the third or fourth time. The first time I read the books, I remember thinking, "What? Bullshit...", the second time I was angry that this was happening, and this time it's come to a sort of acceptance. I've come to accept that there's food additives in the food we eat and water we drink, poison in the air we breathe, stress and electromagnetic chaos surrounding us. I've even noticed the effects.
1. Radiation from the computer has begun to affect my memory. Of course, being addicted to the thing hasn't helped, but having no form of electromagnetic chaos reducer to reduce the effects has begun to affect my memory. Maybe it's an exaggeration, but I remember less of what I used to. I have a harder time remembering people's names or faces.
2. Working at Rite Aid, it's incredible the amounts of pills, elixers, syrups, tablets, gels, wipes, etc. there are to help people with their colds. There's an entire aisle of laxatives and fiber capsules. But what about prune juice? What about castor oil? They don't exist at the store. I also seem to recall a study conducted a few years ago (here's a link: http://seattlepi.nwsource.com/national/181045_soy07.html) telling people that cough syrup is no better than flavored water, yet there's an entire aisle dedicated to it!
3. Following Kevin Trudeau's recommendation of drinking organic yerba mate tea with no cream or sugar or lemon (the first product on this page in the yellow box, to be exact http://www.guayaki.com/index.php?p=view_category&category_id=11 ) and the difference is amazing already. It's caffeinated, however, but the caffeine in it does not have the same effect that caffeine from coffee does-heart palpitations, trembling, and an extreme crash in the middle of the afternoon. One cup in the morning, I've been taking it for three weeks now and the difference is already amazing. I'm normally sick this time of year with all sorts of colds or flus-so far, nothing (knock on wood!). I have more energy (duh) and I'm feeling better than I have in months. Plus you make it with hot, not boiling water, so there's a smaller chance of you burning your mouth off. And it's tasty-it tastes like grass and herbs but it's not unpleasant at all.
4. The metformin I was on and the side effect it's caused. I had a blood test done with a glucose meter and my blood sugar was completely normal. Let me say that again. My blood sugar was completely normal. But I was still put on Metformin anyways, 60 of the little tablets to take! Why? I suspect it's the money my nurse/practioner makes. Maybe my blood sugar was borderline. But 60 goddamn tablets?!? Regardless, I've already told you my reaction I've had-swelling. It's dumbfounded the nurses and doctors at the clinic and it all happened within two days of taking the pills.
5. My mother had breast cancer two years ago. They caught it early enough and used surgery to take it out. But she's since been placed on radiation pills and her health has deteriorated. She takes Tums every day, complains of heart pain, complains of headaches on the very top of her head, and yet she fights my father and I when she tell her it's her pills. It's her potassium pills and her estrogen pills and her radiation pills and her calcium pills, but she fights us and yells and screams it's NOT the pills. And in the meantime her health gets worse and worse and worse.
6. My father (and my mother) both grew up on farms in rural Canada and they would eat organic and as fresh as possible. My parents had the usual colds, flus and such as children but they were not sick as they are now. My father loved his salads. Every day he would eat a huge, heaping salad with all kinds of vegetables in and Italian dressing with oil and vinegar. None of it was organic but it was healthy, right? Wrong. The salad nearly killed him. He developed a blood clot in his leg and was rushed to the emergency room complaining of pain in his leg. If he had stayed in the emergency room and gotten a bed with the doctor administering the shots, it would have cost us over $5,000. Dad took the shots home, learned how to administer them himself and it still cost us $1,000. Now he's taking Coumadin every day. The thing is, he still has leg pain and doesn't feel as well as he normally does.
I could go on and on but for now, I'll stop. Feel free to comment or disagree or agree with me. This is merely what I believe and what I'm observed, however, my opinions may change over time.
For lunch, I'm craving nachos something fierce but I'll try chips with mild salsa instead, and a tuna salad sandwich. I'll reduce the amount of mayo I put in (from 1 tablespoon to 1 teaspoon) and put in a teaspoon of dijon mustard and a teaspoon of honey instead. I already put in celery and onion and used the tuna packed in water. I'll also add in a sliced tomato if we have any.
Medical conditions:
Asthma/allergies: I'm allergic to dust, pet hair (I own two beagles), fragrances and hair sprays. If it has fur or a strong scent, I cannot go near it without coughing/wheezing/sneezing or in the case of pets, without developing a skin rash when I touch certain animals. I'm currently takign Singulair once a day, Flovent twice a day and albuterol as needed.
Obesity: This is obvious. It's because I overeat and don't get enough exercise. I just recently started working, though. Being a lowly cashier at Rite Aid at least gets me off my feet and away from the computer. But it also puts me in the direct line of various snack foods and unhealthy frozen treats and meals. Unfortunately, that is all we stock in our store as far as food goes. There are only four organic items I've counted in the entire store. So my solution will be to make my own lunch. It's cheaper, easier than waiting in line during the lunch rush and it'll be healthier.
Suspected Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS) and Diabetes: I believe that I don't have either, but according to my registered nurse practioner (I'll call her Dr. anyway), I do. I do have some excess body hair, and Oligomenorrhea/Amenorrhoea due to my weight. I used to take Metformin but have stopped due to a reaction to it-increased swelling of the breast.
Scoliosis/Kyposis: Abnormal curvature of the spine. Leads to backaches and all sorts. At the moment, I don't need a brace but if it comes to it, I may need one.
Staph infections/Boils: I'm very susceptibile to them. That's about all I need to tell you.
I'm most likely forgetting a few in that list beyond general aches/pains, pimples and so on, but that's the general rundown of my health. If asked how I feel, I would give myself an 89% out of 100%. God knows I'm not running at my best.
Now. My reason for listening to Kevin Trudeau is this: He makes sense.
Seriously. He makes sense to me. My mother brought his first book Natural Cures "They" Don't Want You To Know About, and his second book, More Natural Cures "They Don't Want You To Know About. I ended up buying his third book, The Weight Loss Cure "They" Don't Want You To Know About. I'm rereading the books for the third or fourth time. The first time I read the books, I remember thinking, "What? Bullshit...", the second time I was angry that this was happening, and this time it's come to a sort of acceptance. I've come to accept that there's food additives in the food we eat and water we drink, poison in the air we breathe, stress and electromagnetic chaos surrounding us. I've even noticed the effects.
1. Radiation from the computer has begun to affect my memory. Of course, being addicted to the thing hasn't helped, but having no form of electromagnetic chaos reducer to reduce the effects has begun to affect my memory. Maybe it's an exaggeration, but I remember less of what I used to. I have a harder time remembering people's names or faces.
2. Working at Rite Aid, it's incredible the amounts of pills, elixers, syrups, tablets, gels, wipes, etc. there are to help people with their colds. There's an entire aisle of laxatives and fiber capsules. But what about prune juice? What about castor oil? They don't exist at the store. I also seem to recall a study conducted a few years ago (here's a link: http://seattlepi.nwsource.com/national/181045_soy07.html) telling people that cough syrup is no better than flavored water, yet there's an entire aisle dedicated to it!
3. Following Kevin Trudeau's recommendation of drinking organic yerba mate tea with no cream or sugar or lemon (the first product on this page in the yellow box, to be exact http://www.guayaki.com/index.php?p=view_category&category_id=11 ) and the difference is amazing already. It's caffeinated, however, but the caffeine in it does not have the same effect that caffeine from coffee does-heart palpitations, trembling, and an extreme crash in the middle of the afternoon. One cup in the morning, I've been taking it for three weeks now and the difference is already amazing. I'm normally sick this time of year with all sorts of colds or flus-so far, nothing (knock on wood!). I have more energy (duh) and I'm feeling better than I have in months. Plus you make it with hot, not boiling water, so there's a smaller chance of you burning your mouth off. And it's tasty-it tastes like grass and herbs but it's not unpleasant at all.
4. The metformin I was on and the side effect it's caused. I had a blood test done with a glucose meter and my blood sugar was completely normal. Let me say that again. My blood sugar was completely normal. But I was still put on Metformin anyways, 60 of the little tablets to take! Why? I suspect it's the money my nurse/practioner makes. Maybe my blood sugar was borderline. But 60 goddamn tablets?!? Regardless, I've already told you my reaction I've had-swelling. It's dumbfounded the nurses and doctors at the clinic and it all happened within two days of taking the pills.
5. My mother had breast cancer two years ago. They caught it early enough and used surgery to take it out. But she's since been placed on radiation pills and her health has deteriorated. She takes Tums every day, complains of heart pain, complains of headaches on the very top of her head, and yet she fights my father and I when she tell her it's her pills. It's her potassium pills and her estrogen pills and her radiation pills and her calcium pills, but she fights us and yells and screams it's NOT the pills. And in the meantime her health gets worse and worse and worse.
6. My father (and my mother) both grew up on farms in rural Canada and they would eat organic and as fresh as possible. My parents had the usual colds, flus and such as children but they were not sick as they are now. My father loved his salads. Every day he would eat a huge, heaping salad with all kinds of vegetables in and Italian dressing with oil and vinegar. None of it was organic but it was healthy, right? Wrong. The salad nearly killed him. He developed a blood clot in his leg and was rushed to the emergency room complaining of pain in his leg. If he had stayed in the emergency room and gotten a bed with the doctor administering the shots, it would have cost us over $5,000. Dad took the shots home, learned how to administer them himself and it still cost us $1,000. Now he's taking Coumadin every day. The thing is, he still has leg pain and doesn't feel as well as he normally does.
I could go on and on but for now, I'll stop. Feel free to comment or disagree or agree with me. This is merely what I believe and what I'm observed, however, my opinions may change over time.
For lunch, I'm craving nachos something fierce but I'll try chips with mild salsa instead, and a tuna salad sandwich. I'll reduce the amount of mayo I put in (from 1 tablespoon to 1 teaspoon) and put in a teaspoon of dijon mustard and a teaspoon of honey instead. I already put in celery and onion and used the tuna packed in water. I'll also add in a sliced tomato if we have any.
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
Welcome.
It's the first day of the new year, the perfect time to begin a new blog. So, I imagine you must be confused as to why the title for the blog? I've decided that 2008 is the time for me to try organic things, or as much of it as possible. Why? Because of Kevin Trudeau. I know. "Oh my god, convicted felon, liar, convicted in court, plain as day dipwad and you're listening to him?!?"
Well, why in the hell not?
I have my reasons for wanting to listen to him instead of listening to my doctor. I will detail them in my next entry.
But, I need to introduce myself. My name is M. I'm 19 years old, female. My location is New Hampshire. No, we don't have polar bears, no we don't have igloos, and yes, we do have things such as "summer", "heat", "humidity", and "90 degree weather with high humidity". I'm quite overweight (70 pounds) and I would like to become slimmer. I'm 5' 1/2" (yes, I'm short). No, I'm not like some of the women on TV who are extremely overweight and wear tight clothes. I prefer baggy ones, they hide the rolls of flab better. I like house music and electronica, some progressive rock, some ambient. I detest screamy, emo rock. I detest rock in general except for a few bands that I happen to like.
I'm in college, however I commute (so no dorm parties at midnight and getting piss drunk, thanks). My major is Creative Writing. I happen to love playing The Sims 2, Pikmin, Zelda, sometimes Mario. No first person shooters or WoW for me, I'm a strategy/adventuring person. I only own a Gamecube, DS, the original Gameboy, Gameboy Color and Advance. No XBox or Wii or Playstation for me. Favorite foods are french fries, chips and salsa, nachos (the kind I make myself, dripping with cheese and salasa and seasoned beef, refried beans, sour cream, lettuce, tomato, onion, etc, etc.), cheesecake, chocolate (dark chocolate), peaches, pears and apples. I enjoy cooking and baking my own things, I find they taste better.
One last thing: I'm starting this as part of the Year of Doing Big Fun Scary things together. This is an offshoot of National Novel Writing Month (where the goal is to write a 50,000+ novel in one month). I'm ralerin at the site.
So, there's my background. Phew! You tired yet? XD
Now it's off to bed.
Well, why in the hell not?
I have my reasons for wanting to listen to him instead of listening to my doctor. I will detail them in my next entry.
But, I need to introduce myself. My name is M. I'm 19 years old, female. My location is New Hampshire. No, we don't have polar bears, no we don't have igloos, and yes, we do have things such as "summer", "heat", "humidity", and "90 degree weather with high humidity". I'm quite overweight (70 pounds) and I would like to become slimmer. I'm 5' 1/2" (yes, I'm short). No, I'm not like some of the women on TV who are extremely overweight and wear tight clothes. I prefer baggy ones, they hide the rolls of flab better. I like house music and electronica, some progressive rock, some ambient. I detest screamy, emo rock. I detest rock in general except for a few bands that I happen to like.
I'm in college, however I commute (so no dorm parties at midnight and getting piss drunk, thanks). My major is Creative Writing. I happen to love playing The Sims 2, Pikmin, Zelda, sometimes Mario. No first person shooters or WoW for me, I'm a strategy/adventuring person. I only own a Gamecube, DS, the original Gameboy, Gameboy Color and Advance. No XBox or Wii or Playstation for me. Favorite foods are french fries, chips and salsa, nachos (the kind I make myself, dripping with cheese and salasa and seasoned beef, refried beans, sour cream, lettuce, tomato, onion, etc, etc.), cheesecake, chocolate (dark chocolate), peaches, pears and apples. I enjoy cooking and baking my own things, I find they taste better.
One last thing: I'm starting this as part of the Year of Doing Big Fun Scary things together. This is an offshoot of National Novel Writing Month (where the goal is to write a 50,000+ novel in one month). I'm ralerin at the site.
So, there's my background. Phew! You tired yet? XD
Now it's off to bed.
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