Frightening Thing and A Potential Victory (?)

And more proof that I need to get my rear in gear. I went shopping at Lane Bryant today with my best friend. Now, Best Friend has usually been a solid 22-24, where I've been anywhere between a 16-20 (I've actually gone from 16 TO 20 in three years, I've gone from 18-20 in less than 6 months, which should prove something). Best Friend has been losing weight in recent months and today proved something. She tried on her usual size and it's actually too large for her (24). The same with the 22. Which means that the two of us are now about the same size. If that's not enough proof, I don't know what is. On the plus side, I did do my walking today just going around the mall. And also: I think I lost weight (wait, what?). I tried on several pairs of pants today and I bought two size 18s for the first time in months, and one size 20. I actually don't know if I'm 18 or if I'm 20. The jeans I have fit me but the black cords I wear for work are tremendously loose.

Now for the potential victory. The main grocery store on the West Side is going out of business. It's a loss to the community because it was one of the only grocery stores that were convenient for the residents. Now they'll have to truck their way all across town to get to the closest grocery store. But I count this as a potential victory for myself because of two things: Because we have to truck across town and use the large supermarket that has organic foods. And the grocery store's closing will leave a large space open for another grocery store to open there, ideally an organic one.

My mother and I were discussing that tonight and she also agreed that we need to eat organic and to try to put a water filter into the kitchen sink to begin with, as well as cutting our restaurant trips from three-four times a week to twice. We will have to pitch this idea to my father who is the one who does the grocery shopping. If I can get him to at least begin to buy our fruits and veggetables completely organic to begin with, that would be terrific. Then we can start with the water filters. Then buying organic meat. Then buying organic cereals. Then...you get the idea. Little steps. Little things. And I also need to make my mother teach me how to cook. I know how to but I know only a few basic meals. And if I can help her every so often by making dinner versus her doing it, then it would help.

But I remain absolutely unenthusiastic and refuse to get excited. Because whenever I get excited about anything, it does not happen. I styill hope this will, though